31 March 2010

please don't involve me

pernah tak even sekali dalam hidup korang alami benda ni?
kalau pernah apa korang buat?

i have a friend, untuk tak mengaibkan dia saya gelar dia 'fan' jelah kat sini. one day, fan gaduh dengan kawan dia nama J. bukanlah gaduh teruk sampai tarik-tarik rambut tu eh. just gaduh sebab salah faham jelah. pas tu okey balik, then salah faham lagi.. okey balik. lastly gaduh lagi sekali sampai sekarang dah tak bertegur sapa langsung.

then, fan ni ceritalah kat saya dengan roommate saya semua pasal J ni. guess what? kalau dah sorang menceritakan keburukan yang lain apa agaknya pandangan yang lain tu kat orang yang diburukkan ni. iye, i understand your anger my friend. but you suppose to not tell others too much abour her like that. 'dia tu suka buat itulah inilah'. apa ni? suka ke awak makan daging saudara seagama awak sendiri? pleaselah, kalaulah awak di tempat J apa awak akan rasa. takpun kalaulah J tebar cerita buruk pasal awak kat orang lain sebagaimana yang awak buat apa awak akan rasa?

saya kenal J. dari cerita yang saya dengar memang dia banyak buat masalah dengan kawan-kawan dia, tapi satu benda yang saya respect pasal dia. sepanjang saya dengan dia, tak pernah sekali pun dia cerita pasal keburukan kawan dia. even dia time tu tengah ada problem dengan fan sikit pun dia tak sebut pasal tu. serius saya respect dia dari sudut tu.

we all ada baik buruk yang tersendiri. mungkin kita lebih dari sudut ni tapi kurang sudut ni. semua orang macam tu, so tak payahlah duk sibuk-sibuk nak tebar merata-rata kisah pasal orang. tengok dulu diri sendiri, muhasabah balik.. apa salah kita sebenarnya, kenapa masalah macam tu boleh timbul, apa cara terbaik untuk selesaikan semua tu. fikirlah, sebab tulah adanya akal. hhu, i'm a bit EMO right now. mana tak emo, J pun kawan saya. tapi disebabkan fan yang mengata pasal J tak tentu pasal depan roommate saya, sampai roommate saya pun tak sukakan dia. siap mengata sekali lagi. senang-senang je dapat dosa bersekongkol. what's this?!

apapun, masalah tu kan antara fan dengan J. so tak perlulah libatkan orang lain. kalau nak luahkan perasaan pun luahkan pada sorang je pun cukup. and kalau boleh biarlah pada orang yang boleh dipercayai yang takkan bocorkan tentang keburukan orang tu kat yang lain pulak. itu pun tak boleh lebih-lebih mengata itu ini. huh, penat dah membebel kat sini hha.

perempuan memang kebanyakannya posses that kind of attitude. asal ada problem je ngan orang ni, habis diceritanya macam-macam kat yang lain. sebab tu antara faktor kenapa kebanyakan ahli neraka nanti adalah perempuan. kuat sangat mengata. mintak jauh, nauzubillahiminzalik.

lagi satu, kalaulah kita ada kawan yang macam tu agak-agak boleh ke kita percaya yang dia takkan burukkan kita kat depan yang lain pulak next time? think about it then.

huh, puas rasanya saya lepaskan rasa geram saya kat sini. one other thing i want to say here.. it's raining again. almost everyday the rain come down lately. hahha.

FIND A GOOD FRIEND TO BE A GOOD PERSON
kawan banyak pengaruhnya.

30 March 2010

ha ha hai rainy day

hallo there
it's raining here
hahha

i'm planning to go to 'pasar malam' after this about 5.00 pm with my roommates; only if the rain stop. if not, maybe at 6.00 pm? hhmm, i'm not so sure. i'm just planning and Allah is the One Who'll decide for me. and i always believe that anything happened at the past must have their own reason. Allah Knows the Most. wallahua'lam.

anyway, alhamdulillah my quiz mark was a bit satisfied. but i'll still make the best for the second quiz this friday. i want FULL mark, FULL!

scared? yes of courselah. ahahha, siapa tak takut tu memang bagus betullah. biarlah, yang penting saya sendiri takut. bila takutlah kita akan usaha yang terbaik untuk dapatkan yang terbaik. so kesimpulannya, i'm comfortable with this 'scared feeling'. hha.

okey, wanna sleep for a while because my eyes are just like going to close by themselves in about 1 minute kemudian (kenapa tak 5 saat je?), whatever. so i wish you all have a happy day!

26 March 2010

my english? hahha.

okey, hahha i would like to tell you readers that one of my reason to keep my real identity is because i don't want to get embarrased because of my poor english. you know what, i'm the type of person who easily become nervous of any mistake i've done. i'll think about it most of the time till i can't focus on any other work. like my english use, everytime when i started writing in english, i'll always wonder; will my grammar use be alright? they know me, so i'll be laughed by them because of my poor and bad english.

guess what, i feel really bad about this. so by having this blog with no one knowing me, i can use english with free-thinking. no need to think about what my friends would say about me or what so ever. hahha, what a laughable attitude. i'm actually a bit weird person; if you know me.

i admit here that my english is really bad. but i like to try doing something i'm bad at. so just try to understand my writing. if they're hard to be understood, then i'm kindly say sorry. hehhe.

bye bye

the starting point

hye there, assalamualaikum..

this is just the intro session okey, start.

i create this blog to just say and express what i might not be able to say if my identity is known. i just want to have a peaceful blog without anyone knowing me, who i am, what am i, and what so ever. to create this kind of blog has been my intention since a long time ago. i'm happy to let my identity unidentified by anyone. because i know that if no one know me here, i can tell everything i want without any worry. seriously, i'm happy to have this blog, creating this makes me feel like; ouhhh, i'm gonne feel better next time. about 80-90% better than before. i really want to tell everything my heart want to say. what i'll write here will be what my true heart'll be saying. it'll not be kept anymore. the real me'll present here by words. and that words'll represent me.

i'm just an ordinary person. female. age about 20. live in selangor near putrajaya. studying at pj in an islamic surrounding matriculation centre. i'm happy to have everyone i know by my side because without them, i might not be able to experience so much things like what i've discovered. my style; smile. hha.

i think that's all are enough right? so i'm saying goodbye everyone. daaaa~

wassalam